so...i'm feeling a little bit guilty 'bout the lack of posting going on. or, at least, the lack of posting anything of much merit...i don't want to disappoint all 5 of you who might read this blog occasionally.

there's much that i am learning and dealing with right now. most of it i can't (or won't) write about here. let's just say God is showing me that sometimes i have to make choices that go against everything i feel. for my own good. and i don't like it. telling myself "okay, this is what i have to do" even though i don't wanna...is difficult. but it's getting easier every day.