life would be so much easier if my heart would just do what my mind wants it to...and if my mind really knew what it wanted my heart to do...

just a thought.

giving my life up to God daily is amazing, and freeing, and sometimes really difficult. releasing my grip on things does not mean that my feelings change...and so i try to be patient and rest in the peace that comes from knowing God is in control. but it's not always easy.

i'm just tired. tired of trying to figure things out. tired of asking my heart not to feel what it feels. tired of waiting.

...but i'll do it. i know He is faithful.