a wise friend bought me a journal for christmas...specifically (at least in part) to help prevent any future "oh crap, i wrote that on the blog, didn't i?!?" moments. and so, i think it's time to take her advice.

i'm actually sorta torn about the whole thing. not because i want to share too much. honestly, i think i've learned that lesson. (well, mostly...ha. i'm not gonna lie and say there aren't some things that i'm tempted to shout to the world...but that's not the point here, is it?) i think i feel a little torn moreso because it is cool to read back over posts from a year ago, even two years ago, and see how God has worked in my life. or see what things are just exactly the same as they were then. or see what stupid thing i said that i now kinda regret telling the world.

i don't think this self-imposed blog censorship means that i'm going to quit blogging altogether. we shall see. but it does mean there's a lot to me/my life that you won't be reading about on here. (and that's certainly not new, hopefully just to an even greater degree now.) maybe this explanation has been, in itself, too much information...but i felt the need to let you all in on this change, if for no other reason than to keep myself accountable to it.

so there you go.

(and i'm really just kidding about the secrets thing. i mean, it's about keeping personal things personal...right? you feeling me? whatev...it doesn't really matter either way.)

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to end this thing, i thought i'd share a couple verses that are speaking to me. peace.

my dear children, let's not just talk about love; let's practice real love. this is the only way we'll know we're living truly, living in God's reality. it's also the way to shut down debilitating self-criticism, even when there is something to it. for God is greater than our worried hearts and knows more about us than we do ourselves.
1 john 3:18-20
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